[Ammi]

..I’m so sorry, I don’t know what to say really and I feel so awkward about worrying people, I’ve been so out of it, I should have got Mr A to register and say something, I’m really so sorry…I don’t know, I just don’t really say things like this publicly but anyway, here goes…I was telling Natalie a little while ago how I was getting such bad migraines/nausea/dizziness and a few times I fainted, which I had that morning when I was talking to her about it…I had a bit of an accident last week and fell off some staging which was a really good thing and funny how things turn out because if it hadn’t happened, I wouldn’t have had the medical tests/scans I had…so I had a cyst/lump in my middle ear that was quite large, I hadn’t felt anything uncomfortable because I have a numbness in that ear anyway from a previous surgery quite a few years ago and very little hearing in it so wouldn’t have noticed any hearing being effected…that was what was causing all of the headaches/nausea/dizziness etc…actually my ear was quite uncomfortable during ICB but I thought that was just because I had been using my earphones too much, listening to the music task repeatedly for long periods… I do try to limit it, those tasks aren’t really great for me but I do love doing them…anyways, that’s it really, I’ve had the cyst removed but still a bit fragile and quite drugged up and medicated/a bit spaced out…it’s not so much the surgery but more because the fall I had wasn’t great either/a bit battered and bruised but I am ok, please don’t worry, I really am, just feel a bit silly about the whole thing and the children seeing me like that…I’m also so sorry that I’m not going to look at any messages I may have right now, I wouldn’t absorb them anyway but I promise that I will when I’m feeling more myself again and able to…if I don’t get to speak to you all before Christmas..(and I really will try to..)..you stay safe and take care of yourselves (and take care of each other..).…love always…xxx….(Mr A is being great btw, he even did my nail polish yesterday because I felt so ugly and useless/down but now I have the most beautiful sparkly, pretty nails....)…


..and just thank you.......