Hmm what a question really, should be easy but..is not
I was not that outgoing. Kept myself to myself. However, was whats known as a 'floater' (
) and got along with all 'factions' really, so equally, could socialise with pretty much anyone I wanted to at any given time. I think this was hugely helped by one of my close friends mothers being the local dealer though, another friends dad was also a dealer but also sold cigs cheap, which were bought by half the school (cigs not drugs..he wouldnt sell to under 18s, unlike..other friends mother :/ ) too which I am sure helped.
So I guess quite popular in a way, however, I still felt most at home with 'the outcasts' or 'the freaks/nerds'..a lot of crossover there was mind. And was quiet and certainly not outgoing, unless..on various substances in which case everyone is everyones mate too to start with! The amount of drinking and drugs that went on at our school...I have to think we were an outlier, or I will dread Skye/James going tbh. Going off what stepson says though, its not lessened much really..unless his is also...bad for it and overrepresented or something. But yeah, had an out to be with 'the populars/pretty girls(no clue what the guys were called..weird looking back on what you called groups and that though) but never took it as 'the freaks' were much more interestng in every way.
Besides this, was with the 'skaters' (oddly, no board required really..to be in this 'group') a lot of the time also as my crush was in that group. I was madly in love with him* like, half the school was, and if they saw him now, back then they would be shocked. Looked him up literally today after looking at an old school photo of me (
) that I was tagged in years back..and showed him to gavin and he was like..what the hell was everyone thinking?! Oddly, I can stil see how I remember him just...hes aged extremely badly tbh. I thought I had aged badly til I saw him and now feel MUCH better about myself. Hes not even on drugs or anything that would generally make someone look..well bad from what I can work out. Seems to have not lost his teenage mindset, despite havig a kid. Precovid he was out every week/fortnight drinking with select gang of school mates, appeared to still drink in the local (not local now, but local then! ha) park sometimes too in groups. Which I found desperately...sad. But also nostalgic in a way. Half fancy crashing 'the pavillion' one day when they are out..as like, all bar one I haven't seen in going on 20 years now :S Maybe not a good idea
*Thinking on that, he was the reason so many things in my life happened, which could have gave a weird butterfly effect...stuff like, he was the reason I gt so drunk the first time I blacked out, got taken home by some guy who was NICE and actually just took me home and left laughing at the state of me ad handed me to my mother (was always 'grateful' for that, especially looking back through an adult lense, like I was s lucky in many ways there), which led to my first proper relationship which was only for a few weeks (and he is gay now, I should take it personally, really, how many exes decide they are gay..) but shaped a lot more of my life, eg. made me start going to a place I wouldn't normally go to, which was where I found my first job...and so on
Much waffle again. In paragraph mode! In short, was popular, but not
really, though more by choice than anything else. Also introvert, so the two are not..mutually exclusive as the question makes out
Hybrid Mode
