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SURPRISE! I made a serious thread and It's for selfish gain haha! Maybe some fat people on here could use the tips yall will give but idk back to me

Basically early September I was 84kg give or take. Not exactly healthy but I looked SKINNY so what else matters?

Almost two weeks ago I was weighed at the doctors. It said I was 92kg, but I had shoes on. I googled it and it turns out shoes only affect 1kg of weight at most, and when I weighed myself today at home, I weighed 91kg, so I'm definitely above 90kg

What I don't get is, how? Over the summer I was pretty inactive. I went on hour walks here and there but most of my summer was spent inside playing video games and eating takeaway and sweets, surely I should have gained weight over summer? (I was 84kg at the start too I think)

Now I'm at college, I'm walking a lot more, especially to and from the bus stops and home. I also started going the gym (albeit not often), yet I somehow gained 7kg?

I only really measure myself monthly but for as long as I can remember I've always stayed between 80-84kg. The only time I was ever as bad as this was when I was literally bedbound/chairbound for 4 months and I was 96kg, which was expected as I barely exercised... and yeah now I'm still eating ****ty food but I'm getting more exercise in? I walk to and from work every Saturday so surely I should be losing weight for that?

My only explanation is that I've recently had my birthday and I pretty much stress ate the chocolate I got... and I ended up eating 2 400g jars of nutella in 2 days by myself and an extra one this month. But I've never been that impulsive? I always ration my sweets (I still have some from my last birthday a year ago ) but surely that couldn't have made such a big difference?

Now I know the simple answer to get back to my usual weight would be "do what you did last time to lose 96+kg" but I can't because I forgot what I did? I went to the gym daily and I walked a lot but even before then/after I didn't do anything different to what I'm doing now and I remained at 84kg, and I probably just lost Wright because I could finally walk and burn the fat off me

I'm honestly self centred and don't care about my looks and I always thought I was attractive, and while you can be attractive and fat, I've definitely lost self confidence noticing the weight gain. I could see my moons through my shirt today and that only happened when I was 96kg (I had a permanent double chin and I couldn't get to the first notch on my belt yet I never cared about my weight then which is odd imo??), I feel like my jawline and clavicles have became less defined, and my stomach had gotten so much rounder/I can really grip my moobs and it's upsetting plus I swear I'm getting stretch marks again but I obviously still have my old ones from when I gained such a large amount of weight

I'm just honestly worried. I always had pride in the fact that I lost so much weight and how I bettered myself and now I'm back to square one... which I got to by being effectively immobile and inhaling food.

I need to lose weight, healthily and fast. Any suggestions? My mental and probably physical well being depends on it