[Ammi]

Originally Posted by TomC

These posts are just both so lovely and make so much sense

I stupidly sent him a drunken message last night about how I feel. This morning, I apologized and explained where it came from, saying that we're coming at this from different angles, and I feel like I've been lifted up a lot recently and then dropped a little. He seems kind of understanding but also said he was doing normal dating procedure. the last thing he said was just 'yeah'.

I guess that's it then - I'm pretty convinced now I've completely messed it up and he's been completely scared away by my outpouring of emotion. This hurts sooo much. Like I was really into him, and kissing him was one of the best moments in my life so far, but I guess it just wasn't meant to be, even if I was convinced it was for weeks. I know this sounds dumb, but how do I move on from this, something which has been a pretty big part of my life for like nearly a month now?

..it was meant to be though because it gave you one of the best moments in your life Tom in that kiss you shared...sometimes, people are only meant to brush our lives with a kiss but are not meant to be a bigger part of it.. it's still left you with something of deep meaning though with that kiss so was very much meant to be...and you will move on and move forward if that's all it was meant to be and the good thing with that is that he can stay 'perfect'-ish because if that's it now, then you won't have to experience all of his imperfections and how messy and grim he looks in the mornings and how grumpy etc he could well be and how moody/he's probably a nightmare...if that's it then he's left you with the best of him../with that great kiss...it's his loss only and completely if that's all he was looking for because there is so much more to discover in someone... and you'll move on a bit at a time and getting less painful a bit at a time with the help of your friends from uni who care about you after such a short time, wow what great people eh...with all of the other things that your independence and this time is giving you, so much to experience/with all of those who care about you...you'll move on if that's what's meant to be and you'll meet someone who is meant to be more than a kiss in your life...I promise you.......



...(deleting phone numbers from your phone as well is something you could consider for those drunken moments.....)...